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Make Me Beautiful...
A perfect soul, a perfect mind, a perfect face, a perfect L I F E.
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Created on 2007-12-20 04:32:44 (#14497569), last updated 2008-02-13
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Basic Info| Name: | anas_rainbows |
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| Website: | bulimic-rainbows |
BioHmmm... well, my name is Nikki (not really, but that's the name I'm using so that I can fully express myself). I'm 5'2" and not at all happy with my body. These are my stats:
5' 2"
HW: 236
CW: 182
GW1: 150
GW2: 110
LW: 178
They are absolutely horrifying for me to look at! I used to be a compulsive over-eater since I was 12 and am now not eating most days, and if so I'm eating very little. It's started to kind of take me over. It started as a diet and once the numbers started going down I just sort of got addicted to it and ate less and less each day. I have been self-harming since I was about 15 and I tend to let emotions bottle up inside me. I know that one day I'm going to just breakdown or something because sometimes I just feel like I'm going to explode. I tend to keep to myself. I do have friends but they are going to school and I'm not so I really only see them on weekends and lately I'd just rather go for a long walk by myself. I still live at home with my mom and brothers. I know, I'm 18 and I should be gone off on my own by now but I really don't feel like I'm old enough to be on my own. It's strange... I still feel like a child that should be going to school, doing homework and projects. I finished high school and felt like I should just be going into high school. I'm too scared to move out on my own. So for now, I'm still at home, working random jobs, trying to make enough money so that I can live when I finally take that huge step and move out. Oh god, I'm totally just rambling on and on. I guess that's really all I have to say about myself.
5' 2"
HW: 236
CW: 182
GW1: 150
GW2: 110
LW: 178
They are absolutely horrifying for me to look at! I used to be a compulsive over-eater since I was 12 and am now not eating most days, and if so I'm eating very little. It's started to kind of take me over. It started as a diet and once the numbers started going down I just sort of got addicted to it and ate less and less each day. I have been self-harming since I was about 15 and I tend to let emotions bottle up inside me. I know that one day I'm going to just breakdown or something because sometimes I just feel like I'm going to explode. I tend to keep to myself. I do have friends but they are going to school and I'm not so I really only see them on weekends and lately I'd just rather go for a long walk by myself. I still live at home with my mom and brothers. I know, I'm 18 and I should be gone off on my own by now but I really don't feel like I'm old enough to be on my own. It's strange... I still feel like a child that should be going to school, doing homework and projects. I finished high school and felt like I should just be going into high school. I'm too scared to move out on my own. So for now, I'm still at home, working random jobs, trying to make enough money so that I can live when I finally take that huge step and move out. Oh god, I'm totally just rambling on and on. I guess that's really all I have to say about myself.
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colors, cosmopolitan, garage sales, going for long walks, gossip girl, green tea, hair styling, keith and the girl, kittens, make-up, movies, music, one tree hill, perfume, photography, pro-ana, reading, scrapbooking, socks, sophisticate's hair guide, the l word, the oc, the sims 2, thinspo, web design, weeds
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